Well...life really likes to kick me in the face...I feel like I've failed at life.I guess I'll get into that after I play catch up since I haven't updated in a while. Haven't had much money because, work cut back my hours and Sabrina and I have just been getting by with a little help from KJ and Sabrinas dad.

Things were looking up for a little while there. Jon my friend from highschool came down and we hung out for like three days. It kinda sucked because, I was very sick at the time though. He left and then I went to Portland with KJ for a day. It was fun I actually felt happy. Seeing new places and trying new asian food...It was great but, my happiness can't last for very long...

Chris had insisted on coming down and hanging out.So, after a night he need to go back to Cottage Grove. Well I decided I was going to drive because, during myb four days off I haven't praticed driving at all.I've done this a bunch of times before but, of course this night because, of my great luck I was pulled over and my car got inpounded.

It was great, I worked so hard to gvet tghat damn car just top have it tooken away. It was like the worse night ever. Now I've had to borrow money from Cole and Sabrinas dad..In total so far I've had to pay about 500 so far and that's not even the $600 cition I have to pay for along with it. I'm going to the court to try and get lowered though which is going to suck.

For once in my life I felt like I was doing good. Even if I was hungry and really didn't have anything to eat for a while, atleast I didn't ask anyone for anything and I was doing it all on my own. I was actually proud of myself for once and now I fell on my face agian and had to have help up. I know all I can do is try but, it just seems the more I try the more I fail and the worse things get. Sometimes I feel like I should give up and then I wouldn't be a burden to anyone. I just want things to go right.I thought I was making progress but, this is now a bigg set back in my life.

I can only thank everyone who has been there for me through it though. WIthout Sabrina and her dad I think I would be homeless and car less o.o; KJ even though you're annyoing sometimes, you're sweet and you make Sabrina happy so that makes me happy. Howe...thanks for not saying I told you so too much. Sheena you rock thanks for the McChickens o.o; and Cole. I really wanted to hug him today when he gave the money but...He just got into his car after he gave it too me. It was hard for me not to cry but, I did it some how. I feel so terrible..he has his own shit to worry about and here I am asking for help.*Sighs* Like he already hasn't done enough for me.

What's done is done though I will figure out a way to get the cition taken care of and start in hunt of a second job...because, I need way more money then I have.